Walking By Faith Day By Day!

I've been sharing my testimony lately so I thought this would be an appropriate time to share how I walk by faith on a day to day basis. As we all know some days are easier, and some days are very difficult. Here are some of the "treasures" God has taught me on my journey of faith ...

1. Don't underestimate the POWER of prayer!
James 5:16 "... the effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much!"

What does that mean? The passionate prayer of a godly person is powerful and is effective! Need I say more? PRAY!

2. Don't underestimate the POWER of worship!
John 4:24 "God is a Spirit: And they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth!"

Continually day and night praise is ever in my heart and on my lips. I play worship and praise music all day long. I sing and worship while I do my housework and sewing. I have found that NOTHING on earth breaks through negative thoughts and doubt like worship. Most important ... when you don't feel like worshiping, DO IT! Worship breaks the force of the enemy! It is a secret weapon God gave his people, USE IT!! Paul and Silas worshiped in prison and were set free. Joshua and the Israelites worshiped and conquered the city of Jericho. I overcame fear when I began to worship!

3. Don't underestimate the POWER of the word of God!
Psalms 119:105 "Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path"

The word of God shall direct my steps and guide my way! The bible is the world's most unhidden secret weapon. We live in a day and age where nearly everyone has access to a bible. It's more accessible now then ever before. But sadly it is the most overlooked and under read book as well. It is full of God's secrets, God's plans, God's promises, God's love, God's hope ... need I go on? Open it! Read it! His truth's will enlighten and encourage you. When you are having a hard time reading, KEEP READING! Some days I have to read chapter after chapter. It feels like nothing is penetrating, but it is! Read stories about situations you are facing. If you need a healing, find scriptures on healing. If you are having trouble with submission, read scriptures about submission. God talks to his people through his word! A great bible resource is E-Sword! A free electronic bible for your computer with concordance, study and dictionary, and much much more! Write down your favorite scriptures and post them where you will see them. On the fridge, in the bathroom, by your computer, in front of the kitchen sink. Everywhere you look you will be reminded of God's promises!

4. Submit to God, resist the devil, and he WILL flee!
James 4:7 "Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you!"

You must yield yourself to God's will and be obedient to his word. Once you submit to God you are automatically resisting the devil. He no longer has influence or control of your thoughts and actions. If I know I am not doing everything in my power to submit to God, I find where the area is I am having difficulty in and pray about it and make a conscious decision to fight my flesh and change my ways. If I am still having a battle with the enemy and I know I am doing everything in my power to be obedient, I tell the devil that I am a child of God and command him to take up his weapons and flee, then I praise God for my deliverance. We do have authority through Jesus Christ to command the enemy to leave, but I do not spend much time on this. If you spend your time praising God and being obedient to him then you will feel the joy and peace that you need to conquer your battle! 1 John 4:4 says "..greater is he that is in you, then he that is in the world." If Christ is in you, you have nothing to fear from the enemy! If you have not yet submitted to God, I encourage you to do so! He is only a prayer away! Ephesians 6:11-18 is about putting on the armour of God.

5. Do not allow any negativity to enter your mind!
Philippians 4:8 "Finally brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of a good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things!"

It was amazing to me when I finally conquered this battle how much joy was missing in my life, and how much easier my battles seemed to be afterwards. Negativity will rob you faster then any force on earth. It comes from friends, family, neighbors, saints, children, doctors. Even our own minds can deceive us with negativity and rob our victory. When negativity tries to creep it's way into my life I recognize it as soon as possible for what it is and talk back to it. Yes, sometimes I have to physically speak it out loud! "I am healed! I am delivered! God is in control of my life! Everything is going to be OK! I do love my husband! My body is made whole! I am not in pain! I feel great! I will have a baby! God will provide my finances!" I preach to myself all the good things God is doing in my life and speak by faith the things that I haven't seen yet. Remember "death and life are in the power of the tongue" Proverbs 18:21 I choose to speak life!

6. Live like your prayers are already answered!
Romans 4:17 "... calleth those things which be not, as though they really were"

We have been married for 15 years but so far no positive pregnancy test. Everyday I thank God for healing me and I rub my stomach! I thank God for my baby! I even named my baby! If someone asks if I am pregnant I say "I could be, I've been doing my part, the rest is up to God!" My nieces and nephews ask when our baby is going to come so I say "Some babies take longer to grow!" I don't EVER say I have infertility or I am not pregnant! That is negativity! I only speak faith! YES! It does matter the words you use! Choose wisely! I tell everybody that God has healed me and we are going to have a baby soon! Most people, family included, roll their eyes and feel pity for me. It doesn't matter to me if anybody else believes in my miracle or not, I believe! I also "prepare" for the baby! Read how I "prepare for rain" HERE! You can also read how I stood by faith when I was diagnosed with Cancer HERE!


7. BELIEVE!
Luke 17:19 "And he (Jesus) said unto them. Arise, go thy way: thy faith hath made thee whole"
I suppose this probably should have been first! LOL You MUST believe that God can do it! Questioning whether he can, doubting if he will, saying that he won't will stop God from doing it! James 1:6-8 "But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like the wave of the sea driven in the wind and tossed. For let not that man think that he shall receive anything of the Lord. A double minded man is unstable in all his ways!" Once you ask, stand stead fast that God can and will do it! If you do waver, repent and ask God to forgive you, then start again! It's never to late to believe!


These are some of the lessons I have learned that help me walk by faith day by day! I hope you are encouraged to live by faith! I would love to hear how you encourage yourself to walk by faith!

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My Testimony - Part 10 - With God NOTHING Shall Be Impossible!

My testimony is very long so I have divided it up into parts. Don't forget to read:

Part 1 - God Calls A Child!

Part 2 - A Path Of Sin!

Part 3 - Redemption ... God's Amazing Grace!

Part 4 - Angel's Among Us!

Part 5 - 300 Days And Counting!

Part 6 - Sometimes You Just Have To Laugh!

Part 7 - My Darkest Days And God's Forgiveness!

Part 8 - An Adoption Story ... Well Sort Of!

Part 9 - Chemo And The "C" Word!

"For with God nothing shall be impossible!"

Luke 1:37

For years I have suffered with chronic fatigue and insomnia. I always figured it was because of all my surgeries, but it got so bad my primary care physician sent me to a neurologist. He did several tests and discovered that I had heart disease and sent me to a cardiologist. He said in a 30 minute test my heart beat was completely chaotic and no two beats were the same. I guess he was very concerned, I wasn't, because he made an emergency appointment for me for the next day. I took the stress test and I was very healthy by that standard! Ha I knew it! But he wanted to do the tilt table test. I told him fine whatever, there was nothing wrong with me anyway! The tilt table was to prove whether my BP dropped low enough for me to have fainting spells. Come on this is not Hollywood, I DO NOT FAINT!! I endured the test and used every bit of will power I had. I was going to prove him wrong. Finally after over a half hour, he put nitro under my tongue, and I passed out within seconds! Let me tell you the movies have it all wrong! There is nothing graceful about it at all. I had the worst headache EVER and just wanted to vomit. He was almost laughing at me after the test. He had never seen someone with so much will power to fight! LOL Guess he didn't know all that I had already been through. I was diagnosed with NeuroCardiogenic Syncope. A fancy name for saying that my BP drops too low and I faint. Seriously I was being diagnosed with a fainting disease. I thought it sounded stupid. (As you know by now I'm not very good when doctor's try to diagnose me. LOL)

I was put on a bunch of Blood Pressure pills, and as much as I hate to admit it, I did feel a lot better! I had always had low BP, but now that my large intestines were gone I had a hard time absorbing liquids, so my veins couldn't pump my blood to my head fast enough. It's not really as bad as it sounds. When I get up too fast, all my blood rushes to my feet and kinda sits there for a few seconds. Then my heart has to work super hard to try to get it to come back up. During those few seconds my brain doesn't have enough oxygen and I black out. Usually I can feel it happen and I have a split second to grab the wall or something until it passes. A few times it has caught me off guard and I fell on the floor, usually bumping my head pretty hard. (shh don't tell my doctor! LOL)

About a year and a half after I was diagnosed with heart disease I had a vision. (Before I go on I should tell you it's pretty common for me to have visions and dreams. I usually have one every couple months or so. It just seems to be one of the ways God talks to me.) Anyway so I had a vision and there were many things God showed me. And one of them was that I am already healed. I no longer have to rely on doctors for treatment. Just because I can't see the miracle yet, doesn't mean it's not there! I just have to stand with every ounce of my being, and believe! Don't look at circumstances or what my body is telling me, but trust what God has told me. He promised me my child was on the way, and my body is completely made whole. He was even going to grow back my intestines, and men and doctor's will wonder at the miracle he has done! AWESOME!

Well I was so excited when I woke up. Many people had told me these same things, but somehow God had made it so real to me. God has never lied to me, or failed me. I realized that I had already been healed and I had to start acting like it. I started buying maternity clothes and baby stuff. I was walking by faith that I was healed! I made an appointment with the cardiologist and told him I didn't need my medication anymore. He did a bunch of tests and told me I was healthy and I didn't need to take the medication anymore. He also showed me a picture from my first test and my most recent test. The most recent scan had showed perfect heart beats for a 30 minute period. Truly a miracle! God had done it again!

I was really hoping that I would see results of the baby immediately, but it was not to be. It has been over 3 years since this happened. But I have not doubted and wavered. I KNOW what God said! He promised to heal my womb and give me a child, and I KNOW it will happen! He promised to grow back my intestines, and every morning I look for that to happen! I don't know how or when these things will happen. All I know is that God told me to stand and believe that I am already healed and these things ARE going to happen!

Here is a prophecy God gave me on March 20, 2005

"I have done a complete healing from your mind, to the very bottom of your feet. From the very bottom of your feet to your mind. From the inside to the outside, I, your God, have done a complete healing. And the very thing that I have promised, this child, shall come to pass! Continue to stand and do not be afraid to speak it. For when you speak it, it will come to pass. When you believe with all your heart and with all your might and know that I can not lie. That I will not lie! It is impossible for me to lie! And what I said will come to pass. Just stand and believe and it will come to pass. And I am not done. I have completely healed your body. And men and doctor's shall wonder at what I have done. Because I am God and I am able to do anything. I created man out of the dust of the Earth. I can sure do it again. I am God and I am able to do it. And I can do it. And I will do it! If you will stand on my word, I will cause the very thing that man took out, I will put back. For I AM GOD!"

Sarah & Dustin summer 2010!

God has been so good to me and healed me many times. He has also given me many promises of what is to come, if I have enough faith to believe! I truly thank God for all he has brought me through and the lessons he has taught me along the way. I don't wish any of these trials away because God has used them to make me who I am today. I KNOW he can heal diseases, he healed ME! I KNOW he can heal cancer, he healed ME! I KNOW he can deliver from addictions, he delivered ME! I KNOW he can override doctor's reports, he has done it to me over and over again! And I KNOW I will have my own child soon! He has NEVER failed me and I KNOW HE NEVER WILL!
Thank you for reading my story! It has meant so much to me to share it with you! If you have enjoyed reading this series, please share with your friends! You never know who needs to hear this today. I'd love to read any comments you have! God Bless you and remember: GOD STILL PERFORMS MIRACLES!

Join me tomorrow as I share some "tips" I have learned to walk by faith day by day basis!

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My Testimony - Part 9 - Chemo ... And the "C" Word!

My Testimony is very long so I am posting it in parts. Don't forget to read:

Part 1 -  God Calls A Child!

Part 2 -  A Path Of Sin!

Part 3 - Redemption ... God's Amazing Grace!

Part 4 - Angel's Among Us!

Part 5 - 300 Days And Counting!

Part 6 - Sometimes You Just Have To Laugh!

Part 7 - My Darkest Days ... And God's Forgiveness!

Part 8 - An Adoption Story ... Well Sort Of!

"Is any sick among you? Let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord: And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall rise him up; and if have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him." James 5:14-15

Because I had had so many complications after my surgeries I was sent to another specialist in Boston. He thought I should try a new Chemo treatment that was used to treat Crohn's. I technically am diagnosed with undetermined Crohn's/Colitis because all my tests show inconclusive results. So I agreed to try the chemo and see if it would help. I became so deathly ill and most of my hair fell out. I couldn't imagine why anybody on earth would agree to do this. After the first round of treatments my body had not responded the way they had hoped, so we all agreed to stop them.

Dustin, Sarah and Mazie!

Shortly after J.T. left I went to see an infertility specialist. (I have NEVER claimed that I have infertility! To be infertile is to be unable to become pregnant. And I believe that I will be able to become pregnant. I always tell my nieces and nephews, some babies just take longer to grow.) I knew I wasn't really healthy at the time, but wanted to start the process and see what they could do. Ever since I was a teenager I had a problem with ovarian cysts on my right side. When I was very sick, thankfully, most of this calmed down. But the healthier I got, the worse these became. The infertility doctor determined that I had a blockage in my left tube and a dysfunctional right ovary. Neither side was working properly. Also TONS of scar tissue was blocking the eggs from even getting to the tubes. The cysts on my right ovary had developed into strange looking black masses. They told me black always means cancer. The "mass" (I NEVER claimed it was cancer!) was totally surrounding the ovary and it would have to be removed, as well as the left tube. A left ovary and a right tube doesn't make a great recipe for conception. I was not pleased. The "mass" was extremely painful and was pinching the nerves in my right arm. I needed another miracle!

I went home and quoted every scripture I remembered about faith and believing for the impossible!(I will make a post with them all!) I fasted and prayed asking God to show me His plan in my life.

At the same time my pastor's wife and another woman in church were diagnosed with Breast Cancer. The three of us went in front of church and were prayed for and anointed with oil. As the bible tells us to in James, quoted above! For the first time in my life I felt my healing! Instantly ALL pain was gone! It was beautiful!

I called my doctor and told her nothing would be there, that I was healed! She still wanted to do the surgery and make sure, she didn't really believe me. I decided to go ahead and have the surgery, that way she would KNOW what God had done for me. I had the surgery and she was amazed! NO MASS! Not even a hint that one had ever been there! THANK YOU JESUS!! They did remove my left tube because it was slightly open and if I got pregnant on that side it would 100% be a tubal pregnancy, and they knew emotionally I could not handle that. My doctor tried to say after the surgery that they had mistaken shadows for a tumor, but the ultrasound tech would not budge. She knew what she saw and it wasn't a shadow!! I wish I had the pictures to post for you!

My pastor's wife and the other woman said they also felt pain leave their body, and God healed all 3 of us that day! There is POWER in prayer and in obedience to the word of God!

Two years later I was having pain again in my shoulder. I went to my OB/GYN and he did an ultrasound. It showed another mass over 10cm. In cyst world this is HUGE! It was very dangerous and would need to be removed. And of course they always like to throw in the "C" word whenever they can. I knew God had already healed me and there was no reason for me to have surgery. I went to church to get prayed for again and I knew God would do it. I told my doctor I was healed and he wouldn't need to do surgery. He was not convinced. So I told him to take another ultrasound and he would see. The new ultrasound showed that the mass was growing even bigger. But I did not falter. Every day for a month I cried and prayed, Lord I know you healed me and I don't want to have another surgery.

Whenever I felt pain in my body, I would not acknowledge the pain, but I would say, "Thank you Jesus I am healed". Many days the pain was so bad, all I could say was "Thank you Jesus I am healed! Thank you Jesus I am healed!" over and over and over. The day of surgery was approaching and I was getting upset. I did not want any more surgery! There was no need to have surgery if nothing was there! I consulted my husband and he prayed about it and felt that I should go ahead and have the surgery. I wanted to stand by faith and not have the surgery. I cried and prayed, and cried and prayed. I knew my husband would not make a decision that would hurt me or be bad for me, but I was just not seeing things his way.

So I prayed and asked God to give me peace. And I clearly heard a voice answer back, "Sarah, I'm going to use you to show other people a miracle" Thank You! Now I felt that the surgery had a purpose, it was not for nothing! God gave me the peace I so desperately needed.

The day of my surgery I told my doctor there would be nothing there. This time I was still in pain, but I stood on my faith in Jesus Christ that I was completely healed. "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen" Hebrews 11:1. My doctor had tears in his eyes and told me he had not slept all weekend because he was trying to figure out how to save my ovary. I only had a right tube, so the right ovary is essential! I just smiled back at him. Time would tell. I wish I could have seen his face after surgery! He came out to the waiting area and just shrugged. There was nothing there! HAHAHA Oh God is so good. Although the doctor never did admit to me it was a miracle I knew God was talking to him.

Just recently I had another ultrasound and my doctor found another "mass" on my ovary. I went back to the same OB?GYN and he just said, "I am not worried. I know with you there's really nothing there!!!" Even my doctor is now speaking faith! Hahahaha I love it!!

I am so thankful that my pastor taught me not to have confidence in a doctor's report, but to have confidence in God! What a GREAT and MIGHTY God I serve!! It does not matter what situations come your way, or what death sentence a doctor tries to put on you! God's word says to speak life!

Pro 18:21a "Death and life are in the power of the tongue:"

I SPEAK LIFE!

REFLECTIONS:
~Did you know you DO NOT have to accept the doctor's diagnosis as truth! God can change your diagnosis if you stand by faith!
~God's answer may not always be what you want to hear. I did not want to have another surgery, but God wanted to use my as a vessel to reach someone else. How humbled I am that God can use me as his servant!
~Submission is so important! I asked my husband for godly council and he gave it. I did not initially agree with his answer, but after prayer I realized God had given him the correct answer. Trust those that are your leaders and covering. They have a great task to watch out for us and give us godly wisdom. I believe my obedience to my husband was key to my healing
~If you are having difficulty making a decision, PRAY about it! Do not make a move one way or the other until you have peace from God about it. Be open to hear the answer God has for you, whether it is what you want to hear or not. God talks to his people, we just have to listen and hear the answer he has for us!


Thank you for following along with my story! If you are enjoying this series, please share with your friends. You never know who needs encouragement today! If you would like prayer please leave a comment below or contact me via email (in my tabs above) and I will gladly pray with you for direction! Please join me tomorrow for Part 10 - With God Nothing Shall Be Impossible!

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My Testimony - Part 8 - An Adoption Story ... Well Sort Of!

My testimony is very long so I am posting it in several parts. Don't forget to read:

Part 1 - God Calls A Child!

Part 2 - A Path Of Sin!

Part 3 - Redemption - God's Amazing Grace!

Part 4 - Angel's Among Us!

Part 5 - 300 Days And Counting!

Part 6 - Sometimes You Just Have To Laugh!

Part 7 - My Darkest Days ... And God's Forgiveness!

"But Jesus said, Suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for such is the kingdom of Heaven!" Matthew 19:14

During my sickness all I could think about was having a child. Children are such a blessing, and somehow in my crazy mind I convinced myself that if I had a child, that would mean I was healthy. Because I still weighed less then 100 lbs the not so important parts of my body shut down. So I began to pray that we would be able to adopt. I'm going to keep most of this info general for the privacy of those involved.

My dear boy J.T. was born in October 2001. He was 10 weeks premature and couldn't remember how to eat or breath. He stopped breathing at least 10 times an hour. It really wasn't as scary as it sounds because he was on an apnea monitor and as soon as it would beep, he would jump and start breathing again. J.T. was my life! I had only had surgery 6 weeks prior to him being born, but all of a sudden nothing about me mattered! He was my world! Really things had felt so bad for so many years, this was my first real ray of sunshine!

I was so in love with this child I can't even begin to write about it. He was so fragile, and he needed me. I finally felt like I had a purpose. I rocked to him and sang to him. Prayed with him and cried with him. A biological mother could not love their child more! I knew within the first week that it didn't look like we were going to be able to adopt him, but how could I leave this precious little boy? My boy? I couldn't! So I went every day, not knowing if it was the last kiss I could give him. The last prayer I could say with him. The last time I would ever hold him and tell him how much I love him. Still I went because none of that mattered. All that mattered was he was struggling for his life and needed me.

Like most preemies J.T. struggled with his vitals. There was just too much for his poor little body to do. The nurses tried their best but for some reason I was the only person who was able to stabilize him. I held him in the kangaroo position, skin on skin, and his vitals would be perfect. Somehow my body knew how to regulate his temperature and blood pressure. His breathing became more regular and he was able to rest. I know this was a match made in heaven and God put us together! WHEW even after 10 years I cannot write this without crying! He was my boy!

We were able to raise our dear son for almost a year, and when he left he was very healthy and his doctor's were amazed at how well he had grown and developed. They had never seen anything like it. I still feel blessed that God allowed me to be part of his life! And although losing him was an enormous loss in my life, being his mother even for a short time was an even bigger gain. I honestly believe God sent him to me to save my life as well. It help me to forget what was going on with me, and to focus on someone else for a change. I have never been the same since!

REFLECTIONS:

~Have you ever prayed for something, but God's answer was no? Did you have a hard time submitting to God's will?

(I tried to keep this post as upbeat as possible, but as you can imagine, it was a great struggle for me letting my son go. You can read more about Saying Goodbye To My Son!)

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My Testimony - Part 7 - My Darkest Days ... And God's Forgiveness!

My Testimony is very long so I'm dividing it into parts. Don't forget to read:
Part 1 - God Calls A Child!
Part 2 - A Path Of Sin!
Part 3 - Redemption - God's Amazing Grace!
Part 4 - Angel's Among Us!
Part 5 - 300 Days And Counting!
Part 6 - Sometimes You Just Have To Laugh!

This part is probably one of the hardest parts of my life to share. Mostly pride and shame are the reasons. But I believe it may help someone else and so I am willing to share it.


I did not always serve Jesus. I grew up believing in Him, and thought that was enough. I was a servant to myself. I did whatever I wanted, and made many bad decisions. The guilt of these decisions drove me to make even worse decisions until I was filled with so much self loathing and hate. I needed deliverance from myself. I needed a savior. Once I finally decided to serve God I knew I couldn't do it half hearted. God was helping me make better choices. He was helping me clean up my life, but it was many many years before I would learn to forgive myself.

I've always loved this picture!
When I fail he is right there ready to
forgive.

The guilt and self hatred I felt, mixed with all the pain from my surgeries led me to become a drug addict. Prescription medication is the proper term, but they were drugs, and I couldn't stop. I've asked myself over and over how a person trying to serve God to the best of their ability can become a drug addict. The answer is pretty simple actually. I started looking at the circumstances around me and not trusting God. I made excuses that I was in pain and needed them. And I WAS in pain. ALOT of pain. Both emotionally and physically. I started to have a fear that if I was in this much pain with the pills, what would I feel like without the pills? And I started taking more, just to be safe. After all more pills means less pain right?

I became cranky, mean, unapproachable. I knew what I was doing and nobody was going to tell me what was best for me. I was in pain and needed them, and that was that! I learned many tricks to get more drugs. (which I will not share! LOL) I had them stashed everywhere. In drawers, in closets, in clothes, under the bed. No matter where I was in the house I had a stash of pills close by, just in case. I even went so far as to carry them around the house and sleep with them. YES I WAS AN ADDICT! I'm sure Dustin threw away many bottles and hid them from me as best as he could. But every time he tried to talk to me about it I got angry and yelled, how dare he tell me I wasn't in pain. I had been through so much, didn't I deserve a break?

Our marriage became rocky. Not because he didn't love me, but because I convinced myself that he didn't love me. I became friends with people that were not good for me, and who didn't like Dustin. They convinced me he didn't trust me, and I believed them. I began to aim all my hatred and guilt at him. I made him the bad guy.

But even when we falter and stumble, God is close by. He brought a convicted drug dealer to our church fresh out of prison. This person got saved and began to witness to me. I had been going to church for years. I knew God! But God used this man to soften my heart. He began to tell me I had all the behaviors of being a drug addict. I was appalled! How could a Christian woman become an addict while serving God? But I knew in my heart it was true! I fell down on the floor and repented and asked God to help me. Then I did the only thing I could. I dumped all the pills in the toilet. I knew if I kept them around they would be a temptation. And the amazing thing was, I NEVER felt worse when I stopped taking them. Day by day I began to feel better. I had allowed the pills to hold me in bondage. And God used a drug dealer to witness to me. Although you may feel like you have nothing to offer, you never know who needs YOU!

Now that I was not snowed under I had to face reality. And that was I needed forgiveness. Not only from God but from myself. I wish I could tell you that this happened over night. But this was a long, slow, painful process. In order to forgive myself, I had to first accept that God forgave me. And when God forgives, he forgets, it's just like it never happened. I didn't have to repent over and over for my sins. I didn't have to beat myself up for the mistakes I made. I didn't have to see them for stumbling blocks, but use them as stepping stones to help me grow and change and be a better person. Forgiving myself is a daily step in my walk with Christ. I don't have to relive all my mistakes everyday. But everyday I do wake up and thank God for saving me from myself.

I also began working on my marriage. Love is a choice. And I could choose to love this man, or get a divorce. I chose to give love a try. I made myself tell Dustin everyday that I loved him and he was the best thing that ever happened to me. I didn't believe a word of it, but I thought if I said it enough it might become true. I called him at work just to tell him I was thinking about him. I wrote him notes in his lunch to have a good day. Slowly I began to let the walls come down and I began to see him through new eyes. He wasn't the bad guy, and neither was I. We had just been through 6 horrible years and it takes a toll, both physically and emotionally. But we were determined to make it work, and God renewed our love for each other and began to remove the sadness. And today we are so close and love each other more then anyone else in the world.

God's forgiveness is beautiful, and he is right there waiting for you to come to him. We all struggle with things in our lives. We all have followed the wrong path and have strayed. We all have had days where we didn't treat people like we should. Let today be the day you begin to change. Whether you serve God everyday, have walked away from him, or never knew him. It doesn't matter. He's waiting for you to come to him. Don't hesitate or wonder what people around you might think. Just do what you know in your heart is right. Put down that thing that has held you in bondage. Make a conscious effort to tell someone you haven't told in a while, that you love them. Don't let another day go by. Let today be YOUR day.

"Lord, I thank you that I have gone through these trials. They have shown me that no matter what, you love me. In my darkest days, you are there for me. Forgive me Lord for the things I stumble on and help me grow and learn that I can put my trust and confidence in you. I have many weaknesses Lord, and I need your help to over come them. Thank you for showing me the way. Thank you for your daily guidance and instruction. And most of all your forgiveness, which I am so undeserving of. And you offer so freely. In Jesus' name AMEN!"

REFLECTIONS:
~Have you ever found yourself in a situation you never dreamed you would fall into? Did you listen to advice from your friends and family? Did you pray about it and seek God's help?
~Have you ever struggled with addiction? God can help you get the deliverance you need!
~Have you struggled with forgiveness? Sadly it took me many years to realize that God wants to forgive me, but he only can do it if I let him!
~Have you ever struggled with loving your spouse? Did you know that love is a choice? Fireproof and The Love Dare are great resources to help you with your struggles of love! God gave me the very same principles during my own battle!

***DISCLOSURE*** I am in no way telling anybody to throw away their pills. I am only sharing what happened in my life.
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My Testimony - Part 6 - Sometimes You Just Have To Laugh!

WELCOME to this special edition of "Miracle Monday"! Today I will be sharing a part of my testimony.

My testimony is very long so I am posting it in several parts. Don't forget to read:
Part 1 - God Calls A Child
Part 2 - A Path Of Sin!
Part 3 - Redemption - God's Amazing Grace!
Part 4 - Angels Among Us!
Part 5 - 300 Days And Counting!

"Daughter, be of good comfort; thy faith hath made thee whole." Matthew 9:22

300 days in the hospital is exhausting!

I used to remember every statistic and every detail, but thankfully time has a way of making you forget the awfulness that happens. So I will sum it up as best as I can. I spent almost an entire year in Boston, as previously stated. Then 5 more years going back and forth every month. I still weighed only 78 lbs. I just couldn't gain weight no matter what awful shake or concoction I tried. And let me tell you everybody and their brother had some magic potion for gaining weight. It was exhausting. I had a total of 18 abdominal surgeries related to Crohn's Disease and many complications. I still wanted a baby desperately and so that became my focus. I became consumed with having a baby. Everything else was so dark and depressing that I focused on getting better so I could get pregnant. Of course we couldn't really "try" because I was so sick, but hey one can hope, right!!

Finally one ileostomy bag was reversed, but I still had the other one. Living with an ileostomy bag isn't really something you can prepare yourself for. Looking back I can honestly say that 90% is your mental outlook. If I let it overwhelm me, I fell apart. But when I started looking at it as just another way to go to the bathroom, it wasn't so bad. I'll tell some funny stories for you:

Our life for almost 6 years!

One day I was holding my son J.T. in church (you can read more about him HERE). I stood up to testify and felt something warm and gooey running down my leg. I looked down and my shoe was filled with, yup you guessed it, poop! LOL The baby had jumped on my leg and popped the clip off and poop was all over me, the floor, the baby .... everywhere. Gotta laugh!!

Someone told me it was easier to empty the ostomy bag standing up. I tried it, but the poop missed most of the toilet, and what did hit the toilet made a big splash all over me and the walls. It took a long time to clean it all up! EEWWW I don't think the person who told me that had ever tried it.

I LOVE sleeping on my stomach. Always have. Well I've learned to sleep at a bit of an angle with a pillow supporting me because in the early days I would lay on the bag and it would literally "blow up" and we would wake up covered in poo. AAHH gotta love this new life!

Some brilliant person told me to "burp" the bag. Which is to let some of the gas out so you don't have to go to the bathroom and empty it. If you've never smelt poop from an ostomy bag then it's hard to explain. It's from higher up in your intestines so the food is partially digested, very acidic and extremely runny. The smell is absolutely horrid. So one night I was in bed and so tired I decided to give the bag a "burp". Well the smell was so bad I pulled the covers way up to my neck to get away from it. Sadly Dustin didn't realize what I had done and he pulled the covers high over his head, poor thing. He woke up so fast and jumped from the bed throwing the blankets on the floor. Not only had he stuck his head right in the smell, but also some of the stool had run all over the sheets. I have never tried to "burp" again!

I could go on and on but you get the idea, it takes some adjustment. And don't believe everything you hear! LOL

Thankfully I married a man with a sense of humor!
I love him so much!

Doctor's tried several times to reverse the bag but I kept getting rectal/vaginal fistulas. Basically I pooped where I should have peed. It was very gross and uncontrollable. Any time I walked, turned or basically moved I pooped down my leg. EEWWW My doctor was convinced that the J-Pouch should work and put me through an incredible amount of tests, procedures and pain. Finally I told him enough is enough and I wasn't going through with it any more. We could no longer try to have a baby because, YES I was even pooping on my husband. That was the final straw for me. After much begging I was given a permanent ileostmy bag and the J-Pouch was removed. The doctor's found a hole the size of a quarter in the pouch. I had walked around for 6 years with a hole the size of a quarter in my intestines and NEVER got toxic! THAT IS A MIRACLE!!! It should have killed me within minutes, but I went 6 years. WOW!!



REFLECTIONS:
~Have you ever been in a situation that just so unbelievable you just had to laugh at the craziness?
~Did you know there is healing in laughing?
~Sometimes God doesn't save us from the trials, but he saves us in the midst of them!
~The hole in my intestines should have killed me, but God protected me and I survived for 6 years with it! Even though we don't always see God at work, he is undeniably there!

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My Testimony - Part 5 - 300 Days And Counting!

My Testimony is very long so I am sharing it in several parts. Be sure to read ...
Part 1 - God Calls A Child
Part 2 - A Path Of Sin!
Part 3 - Redemption - God's Amazing Grace!
Part 4 - Angels Among Us!

I was so excited about seeing angels and Jesus that I never stopped thinking about it or talking about it. Those moments are what kept me going for a long time.

The surgery I had was to remove all my large intestines, and my appendix, and create a new rectum with small intestines, called a J-pouch. I was only going to have the ileostomy bag for 6-8 weeks while the pouch healed then it would be reversed. I didn't like the bag but since it was such a short time I really didn't give it much thought.

The chest tube was now ready to be removed, but my lung collapsed again as soon as they took it out. It was so painful and I was relieved to have it out, but now they wanted to put it back in. Hahaha Over my dead body, I told them! Well they finally convinced me to put in a smaller chest tube. It wasn't as effective but hopefully would still do the job. Since I was having a hard time breathing, I agreed. The chest tube was a little scary because it was a machine run with water. Most of the nurses had never seen one and were given classes periodically in my room. Every nurse tried to add or remove water. I, obviously, was at every class and soon began teaching the nurses how to use the equipment that was running my body. It was a quite surreal.

Me in ICU after my emergency surgery.

I was finally sent home after almost a month in the hospital. AH I was so homesick! But I wasn't able to keep any food down at all and after only a few days home I returned to Boston. Some more tests were done and the doctor's discovered a kink in my bowels. Since I was so sick and not doing well with the ileostomy, my surgeon decided to reverse the bag early! No problem here! I was all for it. Dustin decided to go back to work until my surgery, we knew the bills would be outrageous.

One morning after the doctor's morning rounds I began crying out in pain. After 5 shots of narcotics he realized something was seriously wrong. My mom says my eyes were rolling back in my head and I was still crying out in pain. A portable x-ray machine was brought to my room and they discovered my intestines had perforated. I had just had a barium test and was told that it saved my life. If I had stool in my intestines it would have killed me. I was rushed to have emergency surgery. Dustin was called at work and told I would probably be dead before he arrived. He says it was the longest 3 hour drive of his life.

Me sitting up in ICU.

I woke up in ICU and patted my side, wondering if the ileostomy was gone. My mom told me no, and tears rolled down my cheek. The prednisone that I had been taking had eaten a hole in my intestines and they were not able to reverse the bag without making the damage worse, so they actually made a second ileostomy with the hole that perforated. I looked down and saw an ileostomy bag on each side of my stomach.They couldn't sew the wound up because they had to let the poison drain out so I had a HUGE wound from my belly button to my groin that was left open and held together with 4 wires. I also had 8 tubes in my body. My recovery was going to be incredibly long.

I went back and forth to Boston so much I kept track on a calender. I was there over 300 days out of 365. I stopped counting at 300 because it got depressing. My mom and Dustin stayed with me most of the time but I was over 3 hours away from the rest of my friends, family and most of all church. I know there were many prayers being said for me back home and I'll never be able to say thank you the appropriate way to everyone, but Thank You!

I didn't know if I would live or die, but I knew one thing for sure, I NEEDED God. I didn't blame Him or get angry. I was just so thankful that He was there for me and I wasn't going through this on my own. I never forgot where I had come from and the peace that he had given me. I was determined if I only lived a day, or lived 100 more years, I never wanted to go back to my old life. And somehow God gave me the strength to make it through! For many months the doctor's didn't know if I would live or die. Dustin and my mom were constantly being told to say goodbye, it was my last day. I clung to my vision of angels, read my bible every moment I could and basically prayed, Jesus help me. What else could I do? This was the beginning of my journey of walking by faith. I still only weighed 78 lbs. I needed help eating, bathing, walking, going to the bathroom and every basic thing in life we take for granted every day. It took all my strength to stand or pour a glass of water. We had to make a chart because I was taking 22 pills a day and it got confusing, and I still had two ileostomy bags. I knew this couldn't last forever. I just had to hold on to Jesus and make it through.

I sang the chorus "I Love Him Too Much To Fail Him Now" over and over:

I love Him too much to fail Him now, too much to break my vow

For I promised the Lord that I would make it somehow

Now I love Him too much to fail Him now.

Here is a version I found on YouTube if you don't know the song.

My mother also gave me the CD Shout To The Lord 2000. This CD saved my life! I played this CD over and over again and just cried as I worshiped God! There's something about worship that brings peace in every situation. I highly recommend you purchasing this CD or giving it as a gift!

REFLECTIONS:
~Have you ever had your heart set on a situation only to have complications come along and "ruin" all your plans? Were you able to praise God in the midst of your battle?
~Have you ever been in a situation so dark that all you could do was cry? I've found that playing worship music is the best way to help me through those moments. It's amazing how much peace and joy comes when we worship!
~Have you ever felt separated and alone? I was 150 miles away from friends, family and church. I had to learn to lean on Jesus and build my foundation on him. Although thoses years were very long and very hard I would never wish them away. It was during this time that I developed a true love for Jesus! He really became my best friend!
~Every trial you go through is an opportunity for God to do something amazing in your life. Are you looking for the good, or are you dwelling on the negative?

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My Testimony - Part 4 - Angels Among Us!

My testimony is very long so I am breaking it down into several posts.

Part 1 - God Calls A Child

Part 2 - A Path Of Sin

Part 3 - Redemption - God's Amazing Grace!

"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; " Psalms 23:4

Our Wedding Day November 22, 1996

Dustin and I were married when I was 19 and he was 20. We thought we had life all figured out. We bought a house and a new truck. We both had fairly good jobs, life was going good. For the first year I didn't want children at all. I knew I was too young and didn't want all the work and trouble that came along with kids. Then all of a sudden it hit me. The baby fever. Out of the blue and totally unexpected this strong desire came to me. It was so overwhelming how strong the desire became. So Dustin and I decided to start trying. I had been on birth control so had to go off it and let it wear off. Within a few months I began feeling very sick and throwing up a lot. I KNEW it had to be morning sickness!! I told everyone at work I must be pregnant because all I did was run to the bathroom. Month after month this went on and still no pregnancy.

I started having rectal bleeding and my mom became concerned and convinced me to go to the doctors. Two weeks later my test results were in. I went into the office and my doctor said, "You have Crohn's disease, have a nice day" WHAT?!?!?! She didn't tell me what it was or give me a paper or anything. I didn't know if I had a week to live or what. Thankfully I did have more then a week to live, but still the diagnosis was bad. My body made ulcers all through my intestines causing the bleeding and vomiting. I became VERY sick and soon had to quit my job.

In the mean time I had a pilonidal cyst on my tail bone. I had it removed 5 times in the doctor's office and it never went away so I finally had to go in the OR and have it surgically removed. The cyst was extremely painful and so was the Crohn's. I was on A LOT of steroids and other medications at the time. Dustin worked around the clock and didn't realize how sick I was. I was so sick and didn't realize he didn't know. At this time I could barely get out of bed. I had to roll on the floor and crawl to the bathroom, still vomiting and bloody diarrhea. I had sores all through my my mouth and throat, which felt like needles, and soon I couldn't even swallow water. The doctor's just kept telling me this is how the disease goes and it would be 10-15 years before I was sick enough for surgery. Finally I was hospitalized. I had already lost over 30 lbs and I still couldn't swallow. My stool looked like tomato soup. My steroids and morphine were increased to the point that Dustin got very worried. He knew too much morphine was a death sentence. He begged that I be sent to Boston for a second opinion. The doctor was very angry, but after a week he finally agreed to send me. I was sent by ambulance with all medications locked out and without a chart. The EMT's were told I would be dead before I reached Boston. I remember how long that trip was. I couldn't have pain medication and I was very weak and tired.

Showing off my "big" muscles at 78 lbs!

When I arrived in Boston the doctor's in the ER were amazed that I had survived the trip. But unfortunately the hospital that sent me messed up my paperwork so they couldn't treat me immediately. They couldn't get my IV to work so they tried placing a central line, an IV in the main artery in my chest. I was so dehydrated and sick the line went through the vein and punctured my lung. Now I needed an emergency chest tube to drain the fluid and pump back up my lung. The chest tube was extremely painful. It was determined that I was indeed a candidate for surgery but was too sick and would probably die on the table, so they waited a week to give me fluids and TPN (IV nutrition). I underwent MANY tests that week, all miserable! My surgery was scheduled for the following Monday, but late Thursday we were told the Friday surgery was cancelled and I was bumped up. I was going to be given an ileostomy bag. It happened so fast I didn't even have time to process it all. But I was so sick I didn't care. I now weighed only 78 lbs.

Thursday night I died. (I didn't realize it at the time though) I can't even put into words what it felt like. It was so calm. Void of feeling or thought. The true meaning of peace! I was standing on the roof of the hospital looking down at my body in the hospital bed. The room was glowing so bright I couldn't see the walls. There were 4 angels standing guard of my bed. Two at the head and two at the foot of the bed. They looked like HUGE men with blond hair and off white linen robes. They were standing shoulder to shoulder and I felt so safe. I felt a presence beside me and I realized that I was at Jesus' feet. I heard his voice say. "Sarah are you scared?" I answered, "No I see my angels and I feel peace" Then I woke up...

Recovering after 8 hours of surgery!

I didn't fully comprehend what had happened, but one thing was sure, I had seen angels and I HAD peace! God was with me and no matter what happened I knew everything was going to be OK. I told every person I came in contact with about my visit with angels. The story spread through the hospital and soon everybody knew what I had seen.

My surgery was a lot more serious then anticipated. It lasted over 8 hours and finally late that night Dustin was allowed in the recovery room. He was crying. I don't remember him ever crying. He told me that my intestines were so diseased they were rotten. They were 4 inches in diameter and bright purple and fell apart in the doctor's hands as he removed them. He said I would not have lived through the weekend and made it to the original Monday surgery. All I could think about was the vision I had of Jesus and the angels! I thanked God all weekend for his mercy and love and for showing me He was with me. He knew what I would need for the days ahead.

REFLECTIONS:
~Have you ever had to fight for your rights because the people who were supposed to be fighting for you weren't?
~Have you ever been in the "valley of the shadow of death" but felt God's peace that everything was going to be OK?
~If my surgery was not changed to Friday I would have been dead before the original surgery date. Have you ever had circumstances change that first appeared to be random, then looking back you realized there was a higher power orchestrating things?

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My Testimony - Part 3 - Redemption - God's Amazing Grace!

My testimony is very long so I have divided it into chapters! Don't forget to read Part 1 and Part 2!

"Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. For the promise is unto you, and to your children, and to all that afar off, even as many as the Lord our God shall call." Acts 2:38+39

Dustin & Sarah's engagement picture!

I knew Dustin from High School. I don't know how or why he showed up at my house one day shortly after I returned from College, except that it was divine intervention! At first I was not welcoming to him. I thought he was going to be judgemental and condemning, like I deserved. In fact I braced myself for rejection once again. But Dustin was different. He showed me compassion that I had not felt before. I told him about my past and revealed to him my scarred heart. But he did not see me as an ugly, dirty person. He saw what I had the potential to become through the grace of Jesus Christ! And for the first time in over a year the walls around my hardened heart began to crack.

I told Dustin about my search for truth and he smiled. He brought me straight to the church I had been searching for. They were not afraid to preach against the dangers of sin and the destruction it brings. I knew this was truth, I had lived it. But they also taught me I could find redemption (deliverance of sinners from the bondage of sin and the penalties of God's violated law by the atonement of Christ).

God gave me the revelation of his redemption plan in Acts 2:38+39 (above)

Amazing Grace! How sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost but now I'm found, was blind but now I see!
                                                                                                                                 ~John Newton

REFLECTIONS:
~Have you been scared of rejection and condemnation and allowed your heart to be cold towards God?
~Has someone shown you compassion when you didn't deserve it? Have you shown someone compassion when they didn't deserve it?
~Have you received the revelation of God's redemption plan and applied it to your life? It is available to everyone!
~Have you felt God's Amazing Grace?

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My Testimony - Part 2 - A Path Of Sin!

I'm writing my testimony in parts because it is so long. Don't forget to read Part 1 first!

"But I keep under my body, and bring it into subjection: lest that by any means, when I have preached to others, I myself should be a castaway." 1 Corinthians 9:27

I would love to be able to say that I have always been obedient to God's word and followed his commandments faithfully. But that is simply not the case.

Sarah age 17.

I became complacent in my relationship with Jesus Christ. I was not guarded with my faith and I allowed the devil to influence my life. I suddenly had new "friends". I began sneaking out and doing things I knew my mom would not approve of. Hey, I didn't even approve of them. But other kids were having so much fun and I wanted to have fun too, right! Wrong! I was miserable in my sin. I never got high, I got depressed. I never got drunk, I got depressed. I never had fun, I just hated myself for being rebellious, but I kept trying! I began listening to the wrong voice, the voice of lies and deception and corruption.

I realized that partying was not for me and quit after only a few short months. But sadly I was too late to protect myself. The devil had taken full advantage of my time under his influence, and a tragedy occurred that would scar me for life. "Be sober, be vigilant, because your adversary; the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour."  1 Peter 5:8 Those scars ran incredibly deep and wide. I was shocked that just a few months of rebellion could cause so much damage, but it did. And my life will never be the same again because of the choices I made. I knew God wanted me back safe in his arms, but I was ashamed. Ashamed of my behavior, ashamed of my rebellion, ashamed of the damage I had done to myself and others, ashamed that I could walk away from my God who loves me so much and gave so much for me, his life in fact. And yet I had turned my back on him.

That guilt and shame threatened to consume me. I did not realize I was still very much under the influence of the devil. There were two voices calling out to me, but I did not like the conviction I was feeling so I listened to the one I thought was "comforting" me instead. I became depressed, I withdrew myself from the church and good influences in my life. I didn't want them to see me this way. Dirty and ugly and condemned. My mother was very concerned for me and sent me to counseling. I went to a Christian College hoping to cover my sins with my good deeds, but it did not happen. I was saddened that there was as much partying amongst the "Christians" as there was with non-Christians. Not everybody at the school was living this sinful lifestyle, but somehow they always seemed to find me and the devil would play with my mind that I could never get deliverance from his torment. I had sinned, and I would pay for eternity for the destruction I had caused.

Sarah age 18.

Most people didn't know how badly I was suffering. I always knew how to have fun, and I could laugh and tell jokes and "pray" just like everybody else. One day in college a girl approached me and asked if she could shave my head bald. I said why not, it will grow back. (I was too scared to get a tattoo! Thank you Jesus!) With my bald head I felt ugly and sinful and disgusting, just like I felt on the inside. But nobody recognized my cry for help. And when asked how I was doing I would always make a joke about how great life was. It wasn't!

When I came home after only one year at college I realized something had to change. I had wasted an entire year running from my past, from myself and mostly from God. I didn't want to live like this one more day.

But how would I find God after I had run away for so long, and buried so many things deep in my heart? I decided I was going to go to every church possible until I found him. I knew I needed to go to a church that preached against sin but also taught about forgiveness and hope. It sounds simple, right? Sadly it wasn't! I visited church after church and all they taught about was God's love. Yes I knew God loved me and that was wonderful, but what next? I was still being tormented everyday. I prayed, "God I know you are out there but I can't seem to find you. Help me to find you! I need you more then I ever have before. Please don't make me live in this torment forever!" And God heard my prayers!

He sent Dustin to show me the way!

REFLECTIONS:
~Did you know the devil is out to rob you at any possible moment? That is why it is so important to guard our relationship with Christ and not let anything get between us and the cross. The Apostle Paul even warns about staying close to God "lest I myself be a castaway".
~Have you taught your children about the dangers behind sin and the damage it can cause? Sin will take you further then you want to go and keep you there longer then you want to stay.
~Have you seen abnormal behaviors in your children? They may be warning signs that something is not right in their heart.
~Have you seen someone hurting but were afraid to approach them and "interfere"? You may just be an answer to their prayers!
~If you are that person crying out, I urge you to pray and ask God for direction! He will not leave you comfortless and will guide you to the resources you need to help you!

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